A month

A full month has passed and I'm still here.  I didn't die from crying and I can breathe without my girl.   It still sucks, though.

Anyway- Today is Charlie's first birthday!!  My boy is doing great!  We go running at least three times a week and he is doing so much better! I owe much of that to the pinch collar he got for his early b-day present.  He is so smart and just wants to learn, so I love that.  However, he does some really dumb stuff once in a while. 

I'm really at a loss today.  I want to talk about Charlie and how proud I am of him.  I want to talk about the golden puppy I am taking care of and my cats, but eh... Maybe later.

Being on here just reminds me of all the pets I have lost.  I think I just need more time.  I'm not a pathetically depressed person or anything.  I just lost two of the most important pets of my life within a year and while I love all the ones I currently have, we don't have that some bond, yet.  Don't misunderstand me.  I would be devastated if I lost any of them.  Just devastated.. I just..I don't know. 15 years with a cat and bond with a dog that I have never had  before...it's just different. I know that I will someday reach that point with these kiddo's...Maybe not Mogie.  Just kidding.  :) I love that naughty little cat, too.

Happy birthday Charlie!!  I love you! 

Bella, I can't believe it's been a month.  One month and one day.  I can still hear you.  I just haven't dreamt of you yet and I hope that you are OK.  I always have a dream of my babies once they pass. I saw Rhaja multiple times and I always just meant that they were OK.  Maybe Bella is too busy with Pita or Rhaja.